After a hellish week of 80+ hours of working, filled with self-doubt and wondering if I was doing the right thing, I finished. And got boss kudos so I’m all warm and fuzzy, but very tired. I’m also somewhat burned out since when I stop moving, I also stop thinking (normally I have something go on in there). It will pass. I’m very glad I did it, just wish it wasn’t as frantic. But, push came to shove and I just bit the bullet and did it.
Started my college course today also. Didn’t really like the introduction to the class. I felt like I was being treated as a 15 year old, which shouldn’t be the case for a master’s final project. I’ll do it, just not holding my breath at all. I’m waiting for this part of my life to be over, I want to do something new.
At the cabin, me and my dad talked (a lot) about college. It became pretty obvious that I don’t need a feather in my cap from going on. So, after I finish this course, I’m going to focus more on something I do want to do, like write and program. No clue if anything will come of it, but it was nice in this last week just… making things. I solved puzzles, I created minor miracles, and I don’t get that feeling from academia. Too much structure and too many limitations for me.
Well, off to watch a bloody movie and cuddle with the kitties and puppy.