Shifting changes

One of the things my coworkers like to tease me about was a statement I made three years ago. The problem is, exactly what I said was kind of lost by all of us.

My life isn't going to change because of [EDM].

In many ways, I still feel that is true. Yes, having a child is a change, and I accepted it gladly, but so is everything else. What I do is usually determined week to week, and that hasn't changed. I still write, I still obsess, and I still don't work out nearly as much. That part hasn't changed either.

That said, there is always something different in my life. Some weeks, I have the energy to write before work, other weeks, I'm scraping a few hours around midnight. Yep, that hasn't changed either.

Occasionally, I rant at work about things, but that hasn't been much different. Before EDM, it was about money, not having enough time to write, or the current fight of the week. After EDM, it's about money, not having enough time to write, the current fight of the week, or the stupid thing EDM did that no one else really cares about.

I've always accepted variations. Each day builds on the last and there is a slow progression to "something." Having EDM was just those slow progression. He didn't just magically be the little boy sitting at my feet screaming "Go Dino!" at the top of his lungs. It was little things: changing diapers, reading stories, and running around pretending to be shot ten billion times because he thinks it's funny.

I like to think that I wasn't overwhelmed by EDM because I paid attention. I got involved, took my share of the duties, and basically made sure there were no surprises.

And now I'm forty-eight hours from doing it again. The plan is to have SMWM induced on Friday night and have BAM on Sunday. No clue if that is actually going to happen or not, but that's the plan.

I'm hoping that the same thing will happen with BAM in our lives. As long as I pay attention, do my share, and basically be there, I don't think there will be any drastic changes. Just slow, continual changes from the life I had up to this point.

Won't stop my coworkers from mocking me though.